A GNOSTIC’S JOURNAL – The war on the ego

Hi, Sophie J Lees here.

I am a libertarian, hermetic, gnostic, personal development practitioner, spiritual scientist and aspiring screen writer and media content producer from the West Midlands UK. I am also a proud member of my local Lions Club and a backseat member of a local political group. Since 2014 I have become a dedicated student of personal management, personal development, spiritual science and then hermetics and psychology (or cybernetics and psychosomatics – e.g. NLP and etc).

So i’ve learnt a lot on my journey and run into some conflicts and confusions that i’ve had to clear up and felt I had to share. This all concerns the apparent confusion and war on the ego or personality.

In the new age the idea is that the ego or the personality is a demon or self constructed monster complex to be destroyed. I disagree. This is because the ego is part of our personality map which is part of our mind and selves. Also in the 21st century you can’t really function without a personality or ego to process and project or express the world around you.

I do believe we are all spirit or have a christ part which links us to the universal ONE or God spark etc (whatever you want to call it). And yes there is a global consciousness and many levels of interconnected consciousness as well as personal layers of consciousness. These include Unconscious, subconscious, conscious, superconsciousness and then this is reflected again in both the personal and global or collective consciousness. I also believe in mind before matter as well as spirit before matter – if you are more scientific it can be expressed and perceived as all is energy and light or if you are spirit it is all is spirit and we are all made of the same spirit from the same source.

So back to the ego and personality, where does it all fit in? So the new age movement and self help seems to have declared war on the ego and think that it is the negative symbol of separation and materialism which stops you from seeing your true self and must be destroyed or disintegrated to get back to your true self. Yet if you study hermetics, gnosticism and personal development or NLP, the ego and personality  is just a tool that has been corrupted by conditioning and your upbringing from when you were in the womb to 5/7 years old. (Note – that does not mean you can blame your past, environment or care givers and guides up to this point as those all had the same issues too and could only give what they had.) Knowing this, the ego and personality doesn’t need to be destroyed to find your true self but it does need to be brought into conscious awareness then re-conditioned and put back in it’s place as a tool rather than the master it has become in its corrupted conditioned form.

I feel that the new age and self help has just got dogmatic and lost in translation or confusion about this which is where the confusion and conflict arises with those of us who are more practical and into more personal development. That is because (based on the work and video I found – The art of being yourself – Caroline McHugh -TEDxMiltonKeynesWomen) there is a map of your self and personality with 4 layers or 4 Is within the self. 

Starting out and going inward to the core:

Perceptions – what others perceive you as – as many opinions of you as there are people you come into contact with.

Persona – what you want others to perceive you as – moving and changing adaptive personality

Ego – what you perceive you as – very extreme in self congratulation or self castigation and you must find the balance and still point to build a stable relationship with it and to take it from its dominance to one of service to you

Self – the true spirit self and your soul’s true face – the I am within the ego and persona Is, the holy spark we all have in equal measure which hermetics and gnostics refer to as the collective one

Also you really do need a personality self or ego to experience and perceive and function and serve properly in the world. Yes a lot of A COURSE OF MIRACLES or ART OF ALLOWING followers will say that perceptions are impure and to truly be enlightened you should go after the holy spirit / christ awareness for true reality and pure truth and true love. I do believe that you must practice true awareness and pure truth or the christ / holy spirit awareness but you must respect the ego and individual unique you that you are so that you can be active and function in the world properly, aka be in the world but not of it. This is the key of having a humility – not thinking less of yourself but thinking more about those in your presence and serving them without judgement. But you can not do this in the extremes of materialism or of spirituality, you need the balance point of both (extreme materialism here, being concerned on the ego self and outside world and extreme spiritualism here, being just focused on the holy spirit awareness).

The art of being yourself video from youtube

This is my opinion and how the message or thoughts and ideas were dropped in my head. As a media producer and screen writer I already come from a background of finding your true voice and vision so this concept of the ego and true self really resonates with me and cleared all the conflicted learning from at least july to now. I hope this article served you with something and insights and helped somehow.


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