Hi, I am a filmmaker, writer, producer, director and editor as well as an all rounder in filmmaking and media production. I am sophie j lees. I am also stuck on the welfare state and job seeker system. As many people from a creative background with big dreams and ideas, will know and experience how hard it is to realise your film making or other projects ideas and visions. This is no fault of the individual, and (with a lot of reluctantce to admit) it’s not really the fault of the global or national welfare systems or creative employment systems. Instead I have found that the fault lies in between those lines with the current culture of employment and the old fashioned possibly “capitalist” model of find a job and get a stable living to provide for a family and etc. focusing on dreams is always last in mass modern culture Long with fears of failures that hold so any back.
Also the fault lies with creatives because of mind set of the creative individual “stuck” on the system of welfare is in that downward rut and self doubt. The mindset of the welfare people and governments and employers is “oh god not another creative arts grad” Are very much to blame. Believe me I’ve witnessed job advisors at job centres rolling their eyes at me when they saw my media degree and their attitudes change to me. I can’t prove it and it’s even harder to prove in a job interview. I will admit and agree that there is a clear vendetta against creative grads, students and individuals.
Also the fault lies with us as creatives as we let the system at large and others dictate how we should go about our careers, dictate our control, dictate our images, dictate our inner world and self worth. Only we can control our outcomes and our freedom to live the life we want. Only we can help our selves. I get tired when I see other fellow film makers have the excuses and let their dreams die when all they needed was faith and to put the work in, basically you have to get up and do it. Now I’ve been in the whole rut phase with excuses and empathise with people stuck in the job seekers system and wanting to live your dreams. Believe me they at large seem to hate people like us (employers, job advisors and other similar authorities type – mostly if not all the time, parents want you to live your happy life and support you 100% in whatever).
All this aside, I am experiencing this now and will have many ups and downs. Mainly I’m doing ok, I’m on job seekers, the explore enterprise scheme and am pushing myself to keep working. I was lucky to find my faith and self help to keep me going. My family support me in what I want to do and choosing my own path, my job advisor is an alright person but doesn’t get me and I’m a difficult client to all the job centre programmes because in my faith I know what I want and I’ve taken back control. That’s what you as creatives must have faith and courage to do when stuck in this terrible system.
I have achieved, mostly, my goal of producing my short film CONTROL LOSS, and I’m just finishing the edits and so forth. This film is my first since uni and I’m so pleased to get it done and dusted as it’s taken a lot longer than it should have. I’m also working to become self employed as a film and media producer and freelancer, which is the way forward for me, no matter how little support I feel I get from my job centre people, I know I will make it.
In my conclusion and experience, we have support in various and oblivious places as well as opposition. When on job seekers, just play them at their game but treat your “I’m a professional film maker” hat on the rest of the time and you’ll find the whole fake it til you make it rings trues. I have done this and continue to do it (since August 2014 when I fits discovered and started practicing law of attraction and self help principles seriously). I understand many of will will discount my law of attraction and self help faith system and put in place your own which is fine, it’s just important to Have faith in yourself along with whatever you want. But I get up every morning and pretend, or even just be, the film maker I want to be and act as if my freelance and self employed career is happening right now and that I am a successful already. It sounds stupid and crazy I know but it really pushes you forward to keep going and eventually what you think and do turns into reality through hard work which comes eaiser through inspiration because you have that passion and faith that it will happen. I live this way now, and no, I’m not at the end or achievement of many of my short or long term goals of self employment or producting mega buck films or films with a promised pay cheque. But I am successful because I’m producing films and taking control of my career which is more than I had when I first signed on in 2013 and when I finally got my head down with my faith and career path.